Eating My Feelings…

Happy = Cake.  Sad = Chips.  Excited = Chips & Dip.  Hurt = Chocolate.  Anger = All of the Above.

You get the idea.  Can anyone else relate?

In my rational mind I know that this type of emotional eating is a way of “dealing” with whatever emotion I am feeling.  That chocolate really does sooth hurt feelings…at the time.  There is nothing like being angry and stuffing your face with all the goodies thinking “there, I will fix you” to whatever caused that anger.  And in that moment eating my emotions does make me feel better.

Until that moment is over.  Then for me, the shame sets in.  The shame of realizing that I didn’t “fix” a damn thing!  I’m still as hurt, happy, mad as I was before I scarfed down the crap.  But I have now added the feeling of shame.  Ugh!

This has been one hell of a week emotionally for me, nothing earth shattering and thank God no one is ill.  Just lots of words, lots of feeling overwhelmed, lots of weight on me.  Figuratively and physically.  

I am thrilled to have at least stayed the same in the weight department this week.  But think what I could have lost without my emotional eating kicking in!  

I spoke in my last post about being accountable.  I must be accountable for my eating.  The good, the “bad” and the emotional eating.  I will look to find things to replace the eating my emotions.  Angry = Exercise.  Happy = Fruit.  Sad = Writing.  You get the idea.

I am a work in progress after all…

EO